happiness is relative. some people find it in simple things. some people spend their whole lives searching, to no avail.
R's search for such has been futile, to say the least. he searches for it in girls, in bars, in drugs, in everything under the sun. he misses what is already under his nose. he gets frustrated in his search. so much so that he loses sight of what should come first in his life. i pray that God will touch his heart someday. i know that one day, God will discipline him, no matter what it takes. i only pray that He also protects him and gives him a chance to experience His love - to experience True Happiness that only comes in knowing God.