My not-so-little girl is turning out to be quite the mommy's helper. She took baby steps to reach big sister attitude, so I am proud of her! God is good!
Monday, September 7, 2009
The babies are now asleep. I, however, have yet to find my zzzz's. So I am crashing my brother's room and using his laptop to take care of my fish (LOL!) on FB. I was able to do a lot of things yesterday (yes, we had a full day). Met up with my good friend B, and had late lunch at Ajisen. Some friends are in town, and although I would love to meet up with them, I don't think I can, with the kids in tow. Taking the kids with you on vacay means you are less likely to be on time for anything. But we'll see...
Sunday, September 6, 2009
He Collects Your Tears
"You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in Your bottle. You have recorded each one in Your book" (Psalm 56:8, NLT)
TODAY'S WORD
Do you know how important you are to God? He cares so much about every detail of your life. He cares about your thoughts, feelings, and emotions. In fact, what you are going through is so important to Him that He records every sorrow and collects every tear you've shed. Why would God record your sorrows and collect your tears? It's because He loves you so much. He is your Vindicator. He's keeping account of every wrong that's ever been done to you so that He can make up for every single one of them. He wants to restore everything that has ever been stolen. He wants to heal every single hurt and pain. He sees the longings and desires of your heart, and you can rest assured that behind the scenes He is working things out for your good! I want to remind you today that God is with you. He is on your side. He has your best interest at heart, and He is working to bring restoration and peace to every area of your life. Keep standing, keep believing, and keep doing the right thing because the One who collects your tears will restore every broken place in your life!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY
"Heavenly Father, thank You for loving me and setting me free. Thank You for being my Vindicator. I choose to release every hurt, pain and sorrow, knowing that You will make all things new. In Jesus' Name. Amen."
~~~
Got this from PT today. Isn't God amazing? I remember around 3 years ago, as I sat and prayed with my d-group, I got the conviction to "Just Keep Praying". I don't know how many times I've sat on the floor of our old walk-in closet, just to lift up my woes to God. I remember my friend, L, in her own quest to save her marriage... and the way she kept track of the number of times she broke down before God. She would count the number of shower curtains she ruined, because the bathroom was her place of solace - she would cling to the curtains as she cried her eyes out. :) But yea, I remember giving God my commitment to do this for Him, and no one else. I even remember saying "Be it 5 years, 10 years, 20 years, or even if I do not see the day, as long as one day, my husband will come to know the Lord. Then I know I have fulfilled my purpose."
This battle is no longer mine. I have given this to the Lord many, many years ago. This is for Him. The Bible says one does not labor in vain, if he labors for God. But my journey's purpose is to ultimately give God back the glory. I am not a perfect person. No, not the perfect wife, nor mother. But I have traversed this path for so long that the Lord has continuously changed me, my perspective and attitude towards what is the right thing to do. My cousin used to say it was being selfish of me to want to work on the marriage. And for many months, I contemplated. But God is in charge! I didn't have to do anything! I chose to let God lead me, and He did even better. He prepared me, us, for this day. I have no regrets, because I know this is all God's orchestration. I love the man I married 8 years ago. But I hate his sin. I am reminded everyday that we battle not against flesh and blood, but against powers and principalities. But who am I to fear what the future holds? God already promises to save my household! (Acts 16:31) Even better, He promises to save yours! And all it takes is to believe in Him!
side note: You must be wondering why I am updating this blog in the midst of this fiery trial. Writing is my way of coping. I draw from God's promises, the ones hidden in my heart. And I write to encourage others. And in that way, I am accountable to many. As such, I think twice, thrice, nth number of times before I take the next step, making sure it is the right one.
TODAY'S WORD
Do you know how important you are to God? He cares so much about every detail of your life. He cares about your thoughts, feelings, and emotions. In fact, what you are going through is so important to Him that He records every sorrow and collects every tear you've shed. Why would God record your sorrows and collect your tears? It's because He loves you so much. He is your Vindicator. He's keeping account of every wrong that's ever been done to you so that He can make up for every single one of them. He wants to restore everything that has ever been stolen. He wants to heal every single hurt and pain. He sees the longings and desires of your heart, and you can rest assured that behind the scenes He is working things out for your good! I want to remind you today that God is with you. He is on your side. He has your best interest at heart, and He is working to bring restoration and peace to every area of your life. Keep standing, keep believing, and keep doing the right thing because the One who collects your tears will restore every broken place in your life!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY
"Heavenly Father, thank You for loving me and setting me free. Thank You for being my Vindicator. I choose to release every hurt, pain and sorrow, knowing that You will make all things new. In Jesus' Name. Amen."
~~~
Got this from PT today. Isn't God amazing? I remember around 3 years ago, as I sat and prayed with my d-group, I got the conviction to "Just Keep Praying". I don't know how many times I've sat on the floor of our old walk-in closet, just to lift up my woes to God. I remember my friend, L, in her own quest to save her marriage... and the way she kept track of the number of times she broke down before God. She would count the number of shower curtains she ruined, because the bathroom was her place of solace - she would cling to the curtains as she cried her eyes out. :) But yea, I remember giving God my commitment to do this for Him, and no one else. I even remember saying "Be it 5 years, 10 years, 20 years, or even if I do not see the day, as long as one day, my husband will come to know the Lord. Then I know I have fulfilled my purpose."
This battle is no longer mine. I have given this to the Lord many, many years ago. This is for Him. The Bible says one does not labor in vain, if he labors for God. But my journey's purpose is to ultimately give God back the glory. I am not a perfect person. No, not the perfect wife, nor mother. But I have traversed this path for so long that the Lord has continuously changed me, my perspective and attitude towards what is the right thing to do. My cousin used to say it was being selfish of me to want to work on the marriage. And for many months, I contemplated. But God is in charge! I didn't have to do anything! I chose to let God lead me, and He did even better. He prepared me, us, for this day. I have no regrets, because I know this is all God's orchestration. I love the man I married 8 years ago. But I hate his sin. I am reminded everyday that we battle not against flesh and blood, but against powers and principalities. But who am I to fear what the future holds? God already promises to save my household! (Acts 16:31) Even better, He promises to save yours! And all it takes is to believe in Him!
side note: You must be wondering why I am updating this blog in the midst of this fiery trial. Writing is my way of coping. I draw from God's promises, the ones hidden in my heart. And I write to encourage others. And in that way, I am accountable to many. As such, I think twice, thrice, nth number of times before I take the next step, making sure it is the right one.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Today
Took the kids to a new mall today. The good thing about traveling without the nanny is you get to spend real time with the kids. The baby has been clingy since we arrived early this week, and refuses to separate from his Sling. So yea, sore shoulders. Thanks to my super secret liner, I still have the energy to do this 12 hours straight. I bet J is laughing just thinking about how I managed, and will continue to manage, because only God knows when I will ever be ready to go home.
Friends have emailed me links to websites containing exclusives and what-nots... you know, to keep myself updated. But reading just the first exclusive brought me back to bitter feelings hidden way, way underneath my mask. So thank you, I shall stay away. My mom says I should not forget that I am on vacay. Yes, this trip was planned 6 months ago! Imagine that! Isn't God the best director of life? Who would've known?
God has sustained me. And our time out from everything remains good. Yes, His grace is sufficient.
~~~
Last night, as we said a special prayer for R, A ended up crying because she says she misses her dad. :( How can I protect my daughter from things beyond my control? Sigh. You know how people always remind men to respect women because they have mothers, sisters and someday, daughters? I cannot even begin to understand how one CHOOSES to destroy his or her child's life. Who wishes a legacy of pain, separation, battery, abuse, divorce, etc on his or her own child? The world is crazy. I will never, never understand.
Vengeance...
...belongs to the Lord. This happened because it had to happen. God sides with the righteous, NEVER with the sinner (or in this case, sinners).
How is your married life? How is your relationship with God? Moi? I am just thankful God prepared me for this day. I am overwhelmed with the outpouring of love and support, but above all, it is God's grace I am most thankful for.
Legalities are for the waste basket. In God's eyes, once you leave your mother and father, you CLEAVE to your husband and become ONE. And what God has put together, let NO MAN OR WOMAN separate. There are consequences to everything. I am just thankful I have God as my commander-in-chief. Et toi, who leads your battle?
Are you weary about your future? Do you have problems similar to mine? GOD LOVES YOU and HE PROMISES TO CARRY YOU!
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