Ah Galing!

whenever A wants to exclaim her awe in tagalog, she says "Ah Galing!" to mean "Ang Galing!" today, as i listened to Charlyne and her daily talk on marriages, she gave these verses of encouragement:

PHILIPPIANS 4:4-9 - "Be full of joy in the Lord always. I will say again, be full of joy. Let everyone see that you are gentle and kind. The Lord is coming soon. Do not worry about anything, but pray and ask God for everything you need, always giving thanks. And God's peace, which is so great we cannot understand it, will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Brothers and sisters, think about the things that are good and worthy of praise. Think about the things that are true and honorable and right and pure and beautiful and respected. Do what you learned and received from me, what I told you, and what you saw me do. And the God who gives peace will be with you."

PHILIPPIANS 4:13 - "I can do all things through Christ, because he gives me strength."

PHILIPPIANS 4:19 - "My God will use his wonderful riches in Christ Jesus to give you everything you need."


Ah Galing!

Goodbye, Ace Detective KC!

"para ka palang detective?!"

i can't get these words out of my head. i was talking to my MIL saturday afternoon, and in the middle of my seeking-for-her-advice, she tells me this.

"nothing is impossible with prayer. hayaan mo nalang."

God's message is so clear. He wants me desperately dependent on Him. i cannot do this on my own. i cannot keep searching for evidence that will only hurt me. i cannot change him, only God can do that. i have been playing detective for the past weeks (WIS inquiries and all other things a detective does, and believe me, i am GREAT at it! even my husband says so, hehe), and all it ever did was give me so much pain, and it took away my focus from God. i remember D telling me right before i confronted T at Gloria Jean's that when something is revealed, it doesn't necessarily come from God. the devil comes to deceive and destroy. so expect him to challenge your stand with amazing discoveries that will put you off balance. i can only discover and unveil so much anyway. so i will leave the detective work to God. actually, He doesn't need to snoop around, because HE ALREADY KNOWS. Our God is omniscient so He already knows. i will take my father's and my MIL's advice and leave it all up to God.

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yesterday, during Church service, Pastor S talked about holding on to the true Jesus. i realized that all this time, i was holding the hand of a "limited" Jesus - one that i have limited to my own concept of who He is. as much as i wanted to put my trust in my omnipotent God, i was always taking things into my own hands, doing this and doing that - forgetting and actually setting aside the fact that my God can do everything. so today, i am letting go of that. i will hold on to the one, true God. the One who is able to save me and work the impossible in my life. for my help will come from Him alone.

Praise You In This Storm

I was sure by now
God you would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

thanks to ultimaplayer25 for uploading the vid on youtube.

"sometimes, He calms the storms in our lives, and sometimes, He just rides 'em with us. But either way, blessed be the name of the Lord." - Mark Hall, Casting Crowns

Grabe Na To!

things are happening too fast.

yes, dugz and i are going crazy with the turn of events. i haven't been able to recover from the previous discovery, and i'm already on to the next. pati si dugz, sumasakit na ang ulo. it is just too much to digest.

but you know what? i was terribly angry earlier this afternoon, so i went to my dad and asked if he can hook me up with one of his NBI friends. and you know what my dad said? "leave it up to God. hayaan mo. let God be the one to discipline them." grabe. why isn't my heart like that?

today, i texted a friend about how hard it is to be a Christian in this evil world. imagine, if i follow that list i made about waiting on God... and i get to the part about WWJD... doesn't Jesus say to forgive 70 x 7?

i now have a headache. the message is so clear, but i am stubborn. 70 x 7? all of them?!!!

grabe, my dad is a good man.

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ps. well it's friday today, and i didn't do anything. i suppose i have no choice but to forgive her. besides, she hurriedly left studio one so i didn't even have to choose between slapping her or telling her i've forgiven her. :P ha!

Ouch.

yesterday, when i opened my email account, i received a timely devotional from Bob. aray ko. here is part of the devotional:

What would happen if your prodigal happened to be using a search word that brought them to your posted report of, "He said...then we...I told her...she uses drugs...we decided to...the other man said..." These are not praise or prayer reports. They are gossip. The person shamed is the one who shared them, not an absent spouse. Yes, we know it is a release to unload these thoughts, but how about sending them in a personal email to us, or to your prayer partner, not to everyone in your address book? If you are serious about seeking marriage restoration, don’t share the garbage with the world. If you enjoy doing this, you may be doing it for a long while. Godly shame is enough for a prodigal to deal with, without shame generated by a misdirected stander.

If you are seriously standing with our Lord Jesus Christ for marriage restoration, spending time in His presence, and doing everything His way, you are insulated from shame, regardless of what your spouse is doing, regardless of the circumstances you are going through. Your obligation is to keep repentance on the forefront of your life.

the rest of the devotional can be found here.

so, i took down the blogs and saved them for my friends. and because i was sick yesterday and took time to read everything i've ever written about (and to, and for) my husband, i realized why i fell in love with him in the first place. my husband, R, is a good man. we've been married for 6+ years, and i love him even more than i ever did before. i know the Lord has great plans for us. the road is narrow, the burden is heavy, but my Jesus will carry me through.