Goodbye, Ace Detective KC!

"para ka palang detective?!"

i can't get these words out of my head. i was talking to my MIL saturday afternoon, and in the middle of my seeking-for-her-advice, she tells me this.

"nothing is impossible with prayer. hayaan mo nalang."

God's message is so clear. He wants me desperately dependent on Him. i cannot do this on my own. i cannot keep searching for evidence that will only hurt me. i cannot change him, only God can do that. i have been playing detective for the past weeks (WIS inquiries and all other things a detective does, and believe me, i am GREAT at it! even my husband says so, hehe), and all it ever did was give me so much pain, and it took away my focus from God. i remember D telling me right before i confronted T at Gloria Jean's that when something is revealed, it doesn't necessarily come from God. the devil comes to deceive and destroy. so expect him to challenge your stand with amazing discoveries that will put you off balance. i can only discover and unveil so much anyway. so i will leave the detective work to God. actually, He doesn't need to snoop around, because HE ALREADY KNOWS. Our God is omniscient so He already knows. i will take my father's and my MIL's advice and leave it all up to God.

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yesterday, during Church service, Pastor S talked about holding on to the true Jesus. i realized that all this time, i was holding the hand of a "limited" Jesus - one that i have limited to my own concept of who He is. as much as i wanted to put my trust in my omnipotent God, i was always taking things into my own hands, doing this and doing that - forgetting and actually setting aside the fact that my God can do everything. so today, i am letting go of that. i will hold on to the one, true God. the One who is able to save me and work the impossible in my life. for my help will come from Him alone.

Praise You In This Storm

I was sure by now
God you would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

thanks to ultimaplayer25 for uploading the vid on youtube.

"sometimes, He calms the storms in our lives, and sometimes, He just rides 'em with us. But either way, blessed be the name of the Lord." - Mark Hall, Casting Crowns